IM F****** BIPOLAR OKAY!??!?!?! OMG IM SORRY IM SUCH A MESS AND DONT WANT TO TAKE MEDS THAT WILL MAKE ME A FAT A** ZOMBIE SLOB LIKE TRANQUILIZER DARTS. I WANT TO FEEL ALIVE TOO, I WANT TO BE CONSCIOUS OF ALL THE EMOTIONS IM FEELING – NOT DULL THEM OUT SO THAT I FEEL LIKE I NEED TO STICK A DAGGER ACROSS MY WRISTS OR THIGHS TO FEEL. IM NOT EVEN KIDDING. WHEN YOU FEEL THAT NUMBED OUT AND CRAP FROM “MEDICINE” YOU WANT TO LITERALLY STAB YOURSELF JUST TO FEEL SOMETHING. HOW FUCKED UP IS THE PHARMACEUTICAL INDUSTRY.