I’m in my mid-30’s now, and I feel like just ending my life. I have a job, place, to live, and stuff, but it’s the painful experiences and memories I dealt with in my teens and 20’s. I’ve been alone my whole life, never had love or even close friends. So many things have happened in my life to make me feel like I’m worthless and my life has no meaning. I had an incredibly toxic home life growing up. I’d bring my problems to school and all of the kids couldn’t stand me. This went on until I left high school. I wouldn’t say I was bullied, because I know I’m the one that started most of the problems. COVID isn’t helping now at all. I feel like it’s too late to try to make my life better because opportunities for friends and love seem to evaporate after you turn 30 based on my experiences. I know I’m supposed to keep telling myself things are going to get better but I’ve been saying that for quite some time now, and some things have improved, but I still don’t feel like I’m doing myself a favor by being here anymore. Anyone else going through this type of stuff?