i want to kill my self, but i’m afraid to die.

i don’t think there’s anything on the other side, and the thought of endless nothingness after death frightens me beyond any expressible comprehension.

i just don’t feel like i matter any more.

no skills.
no talents.
nothing to base my worth out off.

i just don’t matter.
what am i to do?
i got no friends. I literally don’t know how to talk to people.
i am a creep and a weirdo.
i just don’t fit in neither here nor there.

the only thing i feel proud about is that i learned english out of f****** thin air, and even then my skills are mediocre at best and a f****** joke at worst.

i’m thinking about going to a highway and waiting for a speeding truck to pass by so i can
jump in front of it.

Hopefully that’ll get the job done.

but with my luck it will just let me crippled or worst.

thank you for reading and have a wonderful night