Whatever BS I have written for years till date all were meant for the person I really loved once. My well wishers said to leave many times I didn’t somehow couldn’t something within never allowed.
Now the sky seems clear, mind fresh there is no space for any more bs the diary is full and I intend to close it forever.
The chapter ends ,the road seems empty though but the air is not heavy. The soul is not thirsty for soothing touch, it’s in peace the brokenness gone. Loving oneself puts one in a happy space and I feel that .. Too much energy wasted on undeserving one, too many years, too much time lost in giving and expecting when there was nothing to gain but now I trust God make people to hurt more and more to make you strong and keep you growing. I feel that bone by bone. Meeting you was my greatest lesson in life but not getting to see you in person my loss I used to think but not now cause now I feel you don’t deserve to see me and feel the realness of the whole episode. Now I think it was all planned before that is why we couldn’t meet in real life in the rare chance that we got. It was not lost but meant to be like that standing here today I realize that. I don’t have any wish to change any further you don’t deserve it.
But definitely wish you stay happy in your zone always. I sincerely wish and hope someone else will love you more than what I could.
The moon is beautiful today I must say and for the last time I wish you too feel the same.