when i was a child i could do all sorts of things, like kill pain and make myself stronger, make my breath last longer but then i got older and we couldn’t do it anymore, but now that she’s killed daniel and he’s rottting deep inside my- our mind theres so many things being released from his decaysing corps and so much of it is awful terrible moods and horrible thoughts and just filth but some of it is amazing like today she was able to seize hold of my spine and flush the brain with stimulants and wake me up and i started to realize how much of our mind he was taking up there’s so much more space i’m remembering so much more now and thinking so much faster and i never realized just how bad things got how much more did he take from us how much more will i get back? there’s a wealth in here now i know what people mean when they say how much i can do it’s amazing and terrifying and i almost want to be angry about it but asll i can do is be excited it’s like christmas in our mind how could so much be hidden so close to home but it’s here and it’s mine and i was afraid the hallucinations were back but then we figured out it’s just perception we lost coming back and i don’t know exactly how to use it yet again but we’re so much smarter now i know we’ll figure it out, but seriously f*** that guy but i guess he is pretty fucked anyway, strangled under the water like lion that bit off more than he can chew and now his den is her garden and we’re growing back all the things he stole so don’t tame your demons don’t leash them don’t hide them drag them out into the light and the sun and kill them strangle them with your bare hands and let the cool water run over them until the thrashing stops and be free
