I have had thoughts about my older sister ever since she has started to grow into womanhood and shaped out. Through out the years as a naive young boy I have wanted to confront and tell her my feelings for her and we would be happy together. But deep down I knew this would be the wrong thing to do, and the very idea would be incestuous, so I stopped thinking about her and focused on my schoolwork. Then, forgetting my studies and giving into temptation, I touched her while she slept in the bed across from me at our grandparents farm. At the time it was the most exhilarating feeling to do, it wasn’t even in a serious way, it was just touching her b***. I have even looked into the keyhole of the bathroom when she was getting out of the shower and pleasure myself. This went on from 2007 to 2009. Now I am 18, I have had a girlfriend for 2 1/2 years and we are deeply in love. Every now and then, however, I get those feelings about my sister if only for a second. But I quickly smother the idea so it doesn’t grow again. I feel so terrible and guilty for what I have done. I didn’t wish to tell anybody this but I felt the need to tell someone. I am a better person now. I only hope that God will forgive me for giving into my temptations.