I’ve been lying to myself for a while. I have this lump just below my armpit, beside my chest and I’m worried it’s breast cancer. Ive did so much research and I have most of the symptoms. I’ve made the decision that I don’t want to go through chemo if I do end up having it but I’d rather not know when I’m going to die. Or worry my mum at all. I’m really scared. I don’t want to die, but I don’t want to be a burden to my mum. She can’t afford chemo/ surgery or anything even with insurance. I’ve just been lying to everyone about it. It hurts when I touch it and it’s about grape sized. I’m choosing to ignore it the best I can but I’m so scared one night I’ll go to bed and I won’t wake up.