"So much more to life Than this open door I try to escape Don't know where to go But I don't know why I still stand alone inside my mind But if I try and

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“So much more to life
Than this open door
I try to escape
Don’t know where to go

But I don’t know why
I still stand alone inside my mind
But if I try and hold myself up high
Soon I’m sure to know
Soon I’m sure to know

[Verse

Roam through the halls of the lonely dreamin’
Wit a grin pinned close I’ve been lookin’ for a reason
Seems like the seasons been changing faster
And I’m quietly degrading into crazy laughter
But it goes unheard, branches breaking
Is the only sound left and I have to shake it
But I know that I can’t, and my own mistakes
They are the locks on the doors of this old estate
Waiting for your call, I’m the presence in the hallway
Pick up the receiver and it’s silence always
Hang it up and I stare at it longer
It’s been 142 years and it’s somber
I mark each day on the wall but lately
I’ve been wonderin’ if maybe time displaced me
In a place where I never awake, I just dream
Where the silence consumes every whisper and scream
If I wished hard enough I was there and not here
Would I vanish in a memory of memory’s dear
And disappear from the mind of what I know of this reality
And no longer adhere to the afterlife that shackles me
We Break loose and dissolve into blackness
Let the world go, let it fall off its axis
I’ll make the cut, just give me the knife
God promise when I fade, you won’t bring me to life

There’s been something deep inside of me
A secret that I’m keepin’
But I know that if you lie to me, I
Might discover what it really is
I’ve been lonely on my own since a little kid
And I don’t wanna be the only one to hold the disease
I try to follow right beside you but I know when you freeze
My hollow eyes come alive and despise what I see
A reflection in the mirror but it’s not what it seems to be
Can you show me walk away slowly
Picture on the wall in the hall of the lonely
Eroded over time took hold and broke me
Are you just another person on the path below me, I am
Not a demon but my mind is reluctant
Locked up in this body and the vision I’m stuck with
Gaze at remains of a person I trusted
Just a lost soul not a whole lot of substance, abuse
But I choose to uproot this confusion
The only restraint that I have is to use it
Cruise through the world that I knew with amusement
Now just a shell of a place I could lose it
Paint the walls red but it’s not an illusion
That’s the feeling that you’re feeling
When there’s no longer movement
Around and the sound that you fear is the fusion
Of bone and the saw blade of death and confusion

In a little while you will be alone in a shoreless place
To wander its limitless solitudes without friend or comrade, forever
For you will remain a thought, the only existent thought”

Illbjjb

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This is canada, it’s so depressing

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Back when I was married and me and my wife went back to visit her parents and Tennessee and she had told me before that her dad had s** quite often when she was in high school and when she was growing up they would f*** every morning before she went to school and why we were there I woke up one morning and she was in bed with me and so I was looking around for it and went upstairs and there’s your mom sitting on the couch but just to see through anything on and I looked at her and she looked at me and she’s straightened up and you can see her t*** really well and I said well where’s Renee she says she’s upstairs f****** her father and I said what and she looked at me so yeah didn’t you know that they used to f*** all the time and I said well yes she told me and she said well they still do and so I wouldn’t sit down next to her and she didn’t have any bottoms on it all she just had to talk on and you can see everything that she had so she’s being back against the couch and she spread her legs open and I thought what the hell so I put my hair between you don’t want her leg and it went up between your legs and I started playing with her and she says you want to go make a drink I said sure that’s coming to drink so we went in to the kitchen she was thinking about the drink and had taken off my pants and my underwear and I got it behind her and I stuck my c*** right up around her a** because all of you you don’t waste any time do you I should know and so she bent over and I started f****** her right there and she was still making her drinks she just want to go out on the balcony and I said sure actually went out of the balcony and I started f****** out there and you don’t want to go to the other and I’m pumping her s*** out of her most of came inside over three times and the right after the third time I came inside of her my wife and her dad was standing right there watching us and I just kept my f****** her and then I said what I can’t wait and because your most beautiful okay we’re done so we both set up and grabbed it with our drinks and started drinking our drinks and my wife says so can I talk to you for a minute so I got up and we went in the living room she said what are you doing f****** my mom and I said well we sit there f****** your dad mechanic f****** mom and she was well that wasn’t supposed to be happening and I said why not and she said well my mom you know gets a little talk to me you just taking advantage of her I said no we won’t even talked yet she said nothing just started drinking and she does oh and I said yeah your mom wanted to f*** so we started f****** so she said well since she was the mama getting along and me and my dad are getting along again let’s just trade for the whole week that we’re going to be here is it okay if I don’t like so I walk back in you on the porch and her dad sitting there in the chair right next to your mom and I sat down next to her mom and I started I didn’t go over and I start sucking on water with kids Renee thought that we just trade for a whole week since we’re going to be here and I heard anything f*** with me and I’m Sarah here to f*** all day long and Sarah looked at me she goes yeah why don’t we