the secret is that I dont actually expect Siren to fulfill any of my demands. I purposely set unreasonable ultimatums so i can easily trick myself into rationalising the abuse so i dont feel guilty and i have a human outlet for my anger and insecurities. Afterall, “She chose this.” Is much easier for me to stomach than “Im being an unbelievable creepy and vindictive pervert.” Its all about changing my personal narrative so i feel like the victim.