I know my actions were far from good. I feel like I kept saying I had feelings for a guy until he finally asked me out and we dated. But that all faded when we dated for 2 months. Those months were bliss, and even he had obvious signs of liking the relationship. we are still kids though. It’s our senior year. he was diagnosed with cancer after he turned 18 in September. he broke up with me just a couple of weeks before his diagnosis. I thought I got over the break up. But the love I feel..felt..? became more like an obsession it felt like. I felt selfish. I still do. I wanted to give him the world. he ended things because he didnt want to pull me into his problems. but i would follow him to the ends of the earth because he made me feel alive. we were good friends no matter the circumstance. We even were something more for a short while. i wish i could go back to that time still. here he is, suffering from this terrible cancer that could kill him, and i still worried about what we used to be. his cancer is affecting everyone around town, but i can never imagine how he feels. he’s the sweetest man i know…and i feel like im just a selfish girl who cant get over a guy.