i can’t leave my guy
i could but i would feel bad
the damage would be tremendous
spending almost a decade
our families so close now
saying goodbye so close to a wedding
giving up our prosperous future for my own desires
something i used to want
now i just feel empty
sadness,
longing for something more
what is love?
i can’t decipher my own emotions
i just get high and laugh
don’t care for the alcohol unless it’s to
forget who i really have feelings for
forget that i am soon to become a wife…
because i’m not sure he would never love me like you do,
so i stay
nothing is supposed to be perfect
except for the blue skies