Well .. when im only 15 about 2 years ago .. i was masterbating for some reason with my little brother (he was 2 or 3 at the time) in the stall … i didnt want him to look at me at all so i made him turn around … and whenever im really h**** like that im just in a “h**** haze” … and so when he turned around i was still masterbating to p*** and i was so curious i put his hand on my d*** to see if it would feel good and to see what a h****** felt like , i made him stroke it like twice very lightly and he didnt even know what was going on … so immediatley i took his hand off my p**** … i thought about it before but didnt feel as guilty .. bt i started thinking about it and over the years he has became slow my familys not sure whats wrong with him and i feel like i cause that because i put his hand on my p**** but i didnt force him .. it wasnt pretty innocent i was like 13 i was yoiung and curious and i wasnt thinking straight and i know what id did was wrong and i feel terrible .. but honestly i dont think i caused whatever illness he has cause i didnt like forcefully r*** him and he doesnt even remember i know he doesnt he was so young and hes not gonna remember … but i still feel bad and i have anxiety so it makes me think about it allot so lately its been like obsessive thinking … i cant stop thiking about it for the past 3 days and i just have butterfly and i feel nervous and anxious and like i dont know what to do with myself … well thats my confession i hope i feel better soon and just accept what happened and let it go ,, but i do take 100% responsibilty for what i did .. so i know its my fault .. i just hope god forgives me and i hope i forgive myself and stop thiiiking about it soon i cant even eat .. well pray for me .. thank you for your time and bless you all and thank the lord .