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If only I had been more patient, empathetic, kind. Yeah, maybe if the timing wasn’t wrong. Maybe we could have had something great. But that’s not the world we live in. I was impulsive, and cruel, and selfish, and I perpetuated a cycle of fear and torment. I will remember what happened until the day I die, as a reminder of mistakes to never repat. If only I had been stronger, wiser. If only we had been a little bit older. But what use are if onlys, almosts, and should have beens? It’s just excuses, just conjecture. Truly a waste of energy. I must focus on pursing achievable goals instead of setting myself up for failure and heartach time and time again. The truth is, I have sinned, and I will not shirk this burden, but wear it like a badge of honor. One day I will look back and see how close to ruin I came, and perhaps on that day, it won’t all seem so heavy to bear. I think it’s the time of year.Summer turning to autumn always fills me with wist and melancholy.

New Confession

Today I wake up it’s day three since my capture. Been held in this basement for today the third day with no sign of when I’ll be released. My name is Jake I’m 20 years old. Nothing like this has ever happened to me before. I was nabbed from a store round. This person seems to have no soul or compassion. He brought me here and has held me for three days completely naked.
This place looks like it was set up to hold people for periods of time. He has a fetish with preteen children, he befriends them, grooms them and trains them to aid in his bidding. They show up randomly in couples or small groups and as many ae twelve at a time.
He is a control freak and forces me to say whatever he wants me to say. Apparently he’s recording what he is doing to hopefully maintain my silence of what he’s done. I may seem rational to you but it’s because I’m writing from past history. But then, at the moment, I was so f****** scared I would do absolutely anything to get out of there. I finally got out by convincing him that I agreed with everything he was doing. He literally forced me to j******* in front of those kids until I came and I was to yell out how I liked that he forced me to because I was scared of him. He was turned on by the way the kids laughed at me. And that he caused it. I heard a boy say to another something about how many they’ve seen be a coward like that before. My people I’m warning you be aware this can happen to anybody, this nut isn’t racist nor judge mental. Everyone or anyone is fair game I’ve heard of different people and different states. Don’t walk alone men between 20 – 50.

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