The s** I have with my spouse is acceptable. Fine. It does the job, accomplishes the task. Yet it isn’t and has not been the passionate and kinda nasty “stuff” that I have had with others and occasionally crave. Much of that is because they are not very interested in anything beyond vanilla and some of it is due to his/her wide variety of health issues. Otherwise this marriage is solid and I know neither of us is going anywhere. Sometimes I go a little crazy on the inside dying for different positions and putting my mouth in certain places that it can’t go now. I don’t understand how people have secret affairs. I hardly have the time or the opportunity to meet a person of similar thoughts. Life is weird lol.