As fucked up as she made me, my mother is also the main reason I am so successful and highly stable and functional, at literally everything except relationships. I am an only child, male. She raised me on her own. It was just the two of us. She had insanely high demands of me whether it was academics or household duty. I was the man in her life from the earliest possible age it was even possible for me to take on whatever she expected of me. When she paid men to mow the lawn she paid them well, when she needed a plumber or a handyman she paid them well, samw with mechanics when a car repair was needer, and it was about teaching me to do what tbey were doing so that I learned to do it for her, although I was taught that it was for us. Between school and daily life functions I was very precocious and capable. But that was the bright side and benefit. She was also greedily possessive of me and whenever I would make friends she shut it down quickly. She was grooming me to be her sole possession for life. She trained me that she was the only one that would love me, the only woman for me, that I was not what any woman would want in a man, that I should never let myself believe or trust any girl or woman because they would only use me and hurt me. All the while she was the one I never should have trusted that used my head and my body against me to selfishly keep me all to herself.
