It took me until I was into my 40s to realize that I was very likely molested by my foster father when I was quite young- certainly before the age of 5 or

5 years

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It took me until I was into my 40s to realize that I was very likely molested by my foster father when I was quite young- certainly before the age of 5 or 6.
The realization of it took me by surprise, but it, at least, helped to explain so many things regarding my behavior and my feelings towards myself and some of the behavior of previous foster children in that house.

Further, I feel that it (probably) explains my dislike of being touched, my uncomfortableness taking a shower, and perhaps also my tendencies towards incestuous feelings beginning at an early age.

Thank you for giving me this safe anonymous space to express my feelings.

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I repent for blasphemy against holy spirit disbelieving somethings in bible sry but im still struggling with some things but i beilueve he exists anx mlst the bible. I still think some things are not great advice or many parts are contradictory. I believe jesus exists does for ours sins & the Trinidadian thing etc etc it’s just a couple small things in bible that I get stuck on I also disbelieve he can hear me pray. It’s not bc I don’t believe he hears anyone’s prayers or bc satan is whispering lies telling me Jesus can’t hear me etc it’s just feels like I’ve been praying on my knees for long time and many things never got better in 2 years I actually feel worse in life and faith then i did 2 years ago. But I do read the bible more/bible studies. Can’t get myself to pray very much these days. I used to pray 2 to 3 times a day now I just feel like.. just nothingness when I pray been like that for like a year

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After my dad passed away I was taking my mom back east and he pulled into a rest area because there was no hotels available and I pulled in the very back and we both got in the back fell asleep. When I woke up i was soaking wet from the sweat because the humidity was so high and I got out of the van and I took off all my clothes it’s going to get some new clothes on then my mom woke up and she was the same way she’s just soaking wet so I just got back in the van naked and laid down and Mom got in front of me and we just laid there and I got an erection she felt it and she asked me if I had a hard-on and I said yes she reached back and started playing with my c*** and she said that we shouldn’t be doing this and we’re both adults mom we can do whatever you want so she started playing with my c*** some more and she put it right to her entrance to her c*** and I pushed it in I went all the way inside my mom and I started h****** her you really liked it so then she rolled over and I got on top of her back inside of her and we started f****** and I was pumping her really hard and she got off so did I I came inside of my mom’s p****. We laid there for long period of time and then I did it again I penetrated her and we fucked for about a good hour after that. I got up and put some clothes on and started to drive again. She told me that was the first time in years that she got off. We got to her sisters and we went out to eat and came back and I was going to leave early in the morning and before I left my mom came down to the room I was staying in she got in bed with me and fucked again