i know that the past is the past and it’s what makes us who we are today, but i can’t help myself to stop thinking about it and letting it interfer with my present life. even though i didn’t do anything that bad before i got married, but it hurts me and breaks my heart to have to hide it from my husband even though i told him some of the things. regret and pain kills me every night. and if i tell him he might never forgive me, and i know i can’t live a day without him, i’v tried. i wish that it would just ease off.