God why the f*** am I like this. Why is it so hard to stop being a p************. All of my problems would be solved if I just got a girlfriend. There’s nothing else missing from my life, I’d be happy and confident and the best version of myself if I just had a good woman to motivate me. It’s not fair. I want to be the version of me I was before Siren abandoned me, she made me feel so alive and content with myself and the world for such a short time, I want that feeling back, I think that’s why I keep harassing her. Ugh. I don’t want to be a creep. I don’t want to be impulsive. I don’t want to be desperate. I just want to be normal and neurotypical and happy and loved. I’m not asking for much. I just don’t know where to f****** start.
