You really really fucked up badly too many times for too long. The big thing about it for me, I have said it countless times but the biggest issue for me, and I still do get angry when I think of everything you have robbed me of since we met, like a psycho, but the main issue for me now is you are connected to way too many people I want nothing to do with. People I was walking away from or never wanted anything to do with in the first place, we might have even hated each other, you took their side, fed them, and those connections between you people are forever. You can’t erase it or make it like it never happened. You did irreparable damage to what could have been between us. YOU did that. All of it and I know it was fun for you while it was happening, you know what they say, “it’s all fun and games until…” I know you enjoyed it….Well…. The way I see it you can go to any number of those people if you need anything, which is good. They are more than willing to give you what you need and take what they need. Those were the sides you consistently chose over being here and if I’m being honest, I think they are more suitable to you than I am (for you). I also know that you will never let any of them go either, me giving you the time of day won’t change that, you will be sneaking around. I will never give you the satisfaction of getting me one on one ever again. That is a pain Insane you to feel for the rest of your life. Be with them like Unknown you will be, but you can not have me too. You made your choices. To me it’s an issue of loyalty and sides. I have other places I would rather be if I need something, places I can trust not to do what you have done and will always do because that’s what you are. I would rather be there, so that’s about all there is to say… you need to realize it’s not just about you now. It’s all of the s*** I was walking away from and all of the other s*** I never wanted anything to do with in the first place. You chose that and you put it against me at times that I did not need it. Evil s***. You can’t take it back, I think you should enjoy the people and choices you made. They’re for life. You just made a trade which you can’t go back on. Not that they’re bad for you, like I said, I think they are better suited to you than I am.
