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I’m attracted to the wrong men because of my father! My father is a narcissistic man and his twisted personality had a negative impact on me psychologically, emotionally, and socially. The good things that he has done, doesn’t erase the damage that he has caused me. I’m feeling resentment and anger, just by talking about him.
Because of my father I became a codependent person. The worst part about this, is that I’m attracted to men whose personalities are similar to my father’s. Disgusting. Setting boundaries and prioritising things that are important to me, is slowly erasing my codependency. Honestly, I hate my father. I think its a good thing because these feelings will help me avoid men who are similar to my father.
I have a lot of anger within me and sometimes I do regret not doing something about this sooner. Oh well, there’s nothing I can do about that. I know deep in my heart that most men want one-sided relationships. This is what my gut is telling me. Narcissistic men disgust me. >:-(

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A Truth feels weird to me since I’ve been a compulsive liar most of my life, I will teel the truth as I know it. My father is a Baptist pastor and mom’s family were missionaries. dad gave me and my older sister horsey rides on his knee, his knee bouncing on my cl1t felt so good I asked for rides and pulled his hands to my chest for n1pple stimulation. Tucking me in bed at night he would kiss me on the lips while rubbing m cl1t and s*** my n1pples each a few seconds. My sister across the room would get the same but it lasted way longer. One night I woke up and heard my sister moaning, the moon shining through the window I could see she was on top of Dad moving around. I asked them what they were doing, dad said come over and see. It was the first time he put his little finger in side me while I watched and felt his c0ck going in and out of my 11 year old sister. My sister got mean with me after Dad let me rub my cl1t on his c0ck before he went to her bed but Dad made her stop being jealous by letting me l1ck her cl1t while his c0ck was inside of her. When Sis was pregnant they told me never to say anything about what we did at night and to lie to mom when she asked questions. We rehearsed questions and answers from the time I was 8. he told me he loved me the most and on my 9th birthday he let me put his c0ck inside me a little ways filling me with his c()m. It hurt but he sensations were epic I wanted more. Sis got a boyfriend the next year so I had Dad all to myself, I’m thin so I did get my periods as soon as Sis so I had my first baby a month before I turned 14. The congregation made remarks to us because Dad asked us to have s3x with boys at church to give him someone to blame for our pregnancies. My sisters boyfriend, an alderman’s son, had already graduated high school so I did it with his brother who had an old Chevy car. I swore to Dad I loved him more but I really liked being pregnant and having s3x with both of them. After my baby was born mom put it up for adoption to a church member as my sisters was taking so much of her time. I’ve watched my only daughter grow up and become a Nurse, marry and have two daughters of her own but only say hi or how are you doing to her, she doesn’t know she’s adopted. I’m 62 now, I’ve never told the whole truth to anyone till now.

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A Truth feels weird to me since I’ve been a compulsive liar most of my life, I will teel the truth as I know it. My father is a Baptist pastor and mom’s family were missionaries. dad gave me and my older sister horsey rides on his knee, his knee bouncing on my cl1t felt so good I asked for rides and pulled his hands to my chest for n1pple stimulation. Tucking me in bed at night he would kiss me on the lips while rubbing m cl1t and s*** my n1pples each a few seconds. My sister across the room would get the same but it lasted way longer. One night I woke up and heard my sister moaning, the moon shining through the window I could see she was on top of Dad moving around. I asked them what they were doing, dad said come over and see. It was the first time he put his little finger in side me while I watched and felt his c0ck going in and out of my 11 year old sister. My sister got mean with me after Dad let me rub my cl1t on his c0ck before he went to her bed but Dad made her stop being jealous by letting me l1ck her cl1t while his c0ck was inside of her. When Sis was pregnant they told me never to say anything about what we did at night and to lie to mom when she asked questions. We rehearsed questions and answers from the time I was 8. he told me he loved me the most and on my 9th birthday he let me put his c0ck inside me a little ways filling me with his c()m. It hurt but he sensations were epic I wanted more. Sis got a boyfriend the next year so I had Dad all to myself, I’m thin so I did get my periods as soon as Sis so I had my first baby a month before I turned 14. The congregation made remarks to us because Dad asked us to have s3x with boys at church to give him someone to blame for our pregnancies. My sisters boyfriend, an alderman’s son, had already graduated high school so I did it with his brother who had an old Chevy car. I swore to Dad I loved him more but I really liked being pregnant and having s3x with both of them. After my baby was born mom put it up for adoption to a church member as my sisters was taking so much of her time. I’ve watched my only daughter grow up and become a Nurse, marry and have two daughters of her own but only say hi or how are you doing to her, she doesn’t know she’s adopted. I’m 62 now, I’ve never told the whole truth to anyone till now.

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