I’m in love with my cousin.
She’s pretty, smart, artistic and incredibly musically talented, and she’s into video games like me. Since we were kids, no older than five, I’ve had feelings for her, and I know she at least HAD feelings for me. She lives in a different part of the country, so I see her around three times a year. Unfortunately, we’re both very shy so we’ve never managed to say anything to eachother regarding it, but when we were eight I put my arm around her and then so did she. When we were ten we were walking and we held hands the whole way. Things like that happened and she’s taken almost every opportunity to hug me… But lately she’s been acting less like that… Every day I think of her and I try to communicate with her online whenever I can, but I can’t find any opportunity to talk without sounding over-attached, and when we do chat she’s very quiet.
I love her so much but I don’t know what to do, if I say anything to her I’m afraid I’ll ruin our friendship, and as I have even less chances to talk to her in recent years we’re growing even farther apart as it is, and even at that I’m afraid what my family will say if I have a relationship with her…