It’s shameful to me some things from my past . If I could only forgive myself , maybe I could forgive others. ..

I once was soo tortured and abused i lost my sanity. It’s taken me years to heal parts of my mind , I honestly can’t talk about it outside my family , I’m simply ashamed and humiliated for not being strong enough to fight the pain that once destroyed me .

I used to be a fighter , I used to be a fierce protector and defender of everyone I loved
But then , something happened, I vanished into my mind from abuse from men. I was in psych wards , how’s that for shame ? I I’m very embarrassed by that fact , my own mother almost forced me into a group home . Everyone gave up on me except my papa , he fought hell itself to get me healed . He never gave up ! He forced me to fight the demons in my head. He would stand in a war zone .. with me .. yelling at me “I’m not giving up on you “. It worked . By some miracle it worked . Thank you daddy . Love ❤️ you the most