Sometimes I can be so insensitive. I abandon my friends. I choose to take and not to give. I say rude things that hurt people. I don’t know why I do the wrong thing. I don’t know why I can’t do the right thing all the time. What is in my nature that drives me to do the wrong thing? It’s like I choose to be an insensitive, selfish person. And I’m afraid that I do. Why do I do the wrong thing? I am afraid that I like being selfish, even though it only makes me feel guilty later. I can’t stand myself sometimes.