I’ve been dating my abusive ex of 2 years which I have not told any of my close friends or family about because they do not approve of him as a person (obviously, witnessing what he would do to me mentally and physically). I am awful for keeping it from them and trying to see if there is something worth saving… however, last night I broke things off with him because he was being his classic self and after 2 years of him doing horrible things to me as a person, let alone loving them, things I would never ever do to a stranger, imagine loving someone and doing that? Anyways, I am completely against cheating and he has always accused me of it but I went out with my friends after I broke things off with him and going “no contact” as they say… A girl had pursued a massive attraction towards me (and I never get that usually and I try to see my friends a lot and have had opportunities but obviously not telling them the reason I have turned most of them down is because I don’t want to be disloyal for something I’m so against.. I ended up getting her number and we shared a few snogs throughout the evening. I do not feel guilty and I don’t feel like I should be made to; I’m at a point in my life where I’m so happy to let him go and I’m happy people are actually making me feel like I’m worth something other than just pretend love. I hope someone out there can relate to me x