Just a daily grind with the ex sis in law as a room mate. Have written off any hope of ever being more to her. Not even our previous pay for s** attangement. I still get hot and bothered when we hang or shower or sleep. Seems less lonely with her here. Which beats nothing even if only barely. Works for her since I am well off and less lonely, and works for her since she does not have to even leave for a job or pay for anything. Only time s** has come up was once, and that was overnight cuddled up spooning her, she asked if she needed to give me the privacy to tale care of it, and I told her that if she did mot want to simply be with me when I did it then nope not interested in jerking off while she waits in another room. She told me she did not want me to go sexless because of her, nor did she want to do so herself, and worried that some say it would be a problem for each of us. Told her that my choice on my body is my choice but if she needed to go find s** she already knows how to do that and is free to and that she is not obligated to go without because i feel about her the way I do. In the meantime I put some time into customizing and ordering one of the very high end s** dolls and it will be here in the next month or so. I have rooms to spare and can simply have it to turn to when needed. And it looks as much like her as possible, I sent them pics of her face and detailed body measurements and all. Pathetic? Sure. But this will keep me from humiliating myself by begging for s** from her.