I have been recording my father taking showers this year twice and I think he found out a while back.
Last night he touched my rear and i liked it.
Today after he used the bathroom i ate his s**** out of the toilet. Right out. After he ejaculated earlier.

Immediately I felt guilt, I could possibly contract an std.
Do I regret this? Highly. I have thought incestous thoughts about my fatger all this year and I simply want to give those feelings up.

I dont want to be gay anymore, I want to be asexual and date whomver I want.

I ruined a relationship by confessing my love and being too clingy for a guy friend to be a friend back.
I am 16 years old.
I am deleting all of my p**********. Im letting go of a crush, im letting go of feelings for my father.
And lastly, I am sorry for harming people and I want to try to become great one day, nothing like my dad, a s** fiend with a temper.
I want to achieve greatness, and today December 12, 2013 is when I will start.