Seems like ex suster in law and her sister (my ex wife) share a common thread. Teases who will use s** as a means to getting what they want. The situation has morphed into cohabitation and she gets suggestive and flirts and flashes but the s** for money has turned into nothing real. Fell for her despite should have known better. I am stupid enough to not have the heart to throw her out until the legal thing is handled. Sharing a bed platonically because less lonely for me and she got sad when I went to sleep on the sofa. The only thing keeping me from being super down about it is repeatedly reminding myself that I knew abstractly it was too good to be true. Been mentally distancing myself from feelings for her and as best I can obsessive desire for her. She was at least far more engaging with s** than her sister was. Since I am an early esrly riser was in the shower this morning and she just hopped in a few mins later when she got up. Asked if I wanted to bathe her and vice versa and recreate that first time shower h*******. Fortunately I had the willpower to pass despite getting erect as soon as I saw her. I blew it off by reminding her of the agreement about no paybacks no s** until she decides where she wants to be with this and we get past the legal hiccup. She teased that if I needed it really bad until that day comes (as if it actually will) that she knows her sister is greedy enough to give me s** for money if I “play it right”. It was over the line and she saw it in my face that I got pissed off. But since I tend to go for the jugular when pushed too far, I did not bother stoppimg myself from responding that the only way I would ever f*** her sister again would be during a paid t******** with all of us and her sister would only get half of what she got because her sister was no where near as good at the s** when it is s** for money than she was. Got myself out of the shower and towelled off and dressed and was chain smoking and having a drink for breakfast. Needless to say it is a bit tense and quiet this morning. And suddenly find myself wondering as I vent this if the s** for money with ex sister in law is something they cooked up together. Ex got a LOT of cashout during the divorce, she was not left hanging at all. But just as ex sis in law said I had to show her that she was a goddess in bed, now I would need some ability to believe that she is not just skilled at going thru the motions as her sister was. At least that negativity is clearing my head.
