Siren, At this point, I’m finding a sadistic pleasure in blaming everything on you and acting like the victim even though I know I did some horrible things. It’s addictive as f*** to just ignorantly believe you’re the main character and anyone who holds you responsible for your actions is a villain trying to wrong you. Im really starting to believe that I’m a good person who does bad things and you are just a bad person, because you wouldn’t forgive me. If the situations were reversed, I would have forgiven you. And that means you are evil for not forgiving me. My point of view is the right one, the only one that matters. Viewing the world through a different lens is not something I’m capable of. The very idea that other people have different goals, different motivations, different worldviews is beyond my capability for emotional reasoning. This must be how you feel all the time. Such a burden lifted when I can just blame everything on you and make you my own personal monster.
