I’ve been in recovery from alcohol and drugs for 20 years but I’ve not been able to stay sober on a consistent basis even though I work the steps and I sponsor others and I do service work and I go to meetings. I lie about my sobriety date and I I am having a huge conflict living with myself because my true self and my lower self don’t match. So I get highOn marijuana and I drink from time to time while I’m doing all that other stuff all that acting as if, but just living a big lie
