I have tried to ignore my gender dysphoria for 22 years, to no avail. I can tell any nay sayers/transphobes that I am lucky to be alive. It’s not been an easy journey. I prayed that it would just stop and that I would be comfortable being a cisgender male. But that is yet to happen. I have moments where I’m able to assimilate and ignore, but at the cost of being high as f*** constantly. Then I have moments like this, where I know my truth, and it tears me apart that I didn’t pursue transitioning sooner. So I keep pushing it back, because I’d be embarrassed by how poorly I’d pass if I transitioned now.
My mental health is an absolute wreck, and I’m 100% certain that could have been avoided by feeling comfortable in pursuing hrt.
