I wanted to have fun with him so I started teasing him through text, he came through and we met late at night. I though ‘this will be the night I will give in and finally kiss him, maybe even make out.’ I park kind of far so he calls and tells me to pick him up so that he can show me where to park. I stupidly agree.. We park in a different lot but it’s still kind of far from the front.. Why didn’t it click? Because I’m freaking clueless. As soon as I park, he starts rubbing and touching my thighs and pulling me over to him. He’s so fast, I hesitate but he smiles and I eventually get on him in the passenger seat, maybe I could give him a peck. but I’m so embarrassed, I thought we could like sit down at the bar or something first! I thought I’d have a chance to grab a mint or something!! He starts feeling me up my shirt and under my bra, he pulls me down onto his lap so that I can’t like hover over his ‘member’, and he’s asking if I can feel him growing/throbbing meanwhile my mind is like racing 10 million miles a second!! I didn’t think this would happen so fast! I really didn’t know what to do! I didn’t want to kiss him because I didn’t have fresh breath! and I wasn’t ready to do anything more than that!!! I can feel his pecks under this loose shirt and then he pulls out his freaking huge and I mean like HUGE Johnson. And he freaking like slaps this tree trunk onto my thigh. I don’t even dare look. But he takes my hand and puts it on Johnson. Ho my god.. It’s like the length of my f****** forearm. I’m going to die. and he reaches into my shorts. I grab his arm to stop him but he’s like strong, h****, and going for it. So what do I do? I kind of let him. This is not what I wanted, I wanted to do this in another setting, at another time, after knowing him even more, but I’m drenched. I do want this. Just not like this. *sigh* We didn’t do it, but we did touch more than I had planned for. and now I’m kind of avoiding his texts. He knows my situation, he should let me be ready, and he did have a few drinks before coming out, but I just feel unsure. He’s very smart, smooth, knows how to play the game. (seriously he’s been with like 40+ people and I’ve been with like.. 3ppl and he loves that –“) Every time I see this person he pushes the boundaries just a bit more. I know what he wants, and I know I want it too but.. Not like that. And I’m not so sure he really cares. I’m soo confused!! Because I want to f*** but I don’t want to have him f*** and bounce! Maybe we can be f*** buddies without ties. Ugh, now I’m upset and h****.