When i was 12 i found my dad cheating on my mom. He promised me he loved me and would stop seeing that other women only if i kept this secret from my mom. I did so. He became an alcoholic after that and still is. Everyday the guilt in my lungs grow more and more and i don’t thing i’ll ever be able to make it up to my mom. Because of my dad’s alcohol he’s been very sick from past few months. The doctor told him to stop drinking or else he’ll die soon. Everyone in my house is asking him to stop but i want him to drink more and more everyday so he could die as soon as possible. I know i shouldn’t feel like this but i can’t help it, i hate that man so much. If i’ll ever have a chance to kill him i think i would.