The fact that I’m even with J just surprises me. I was only his little fan that I would watch in his friends youtube videos. He didn’t even know I existed. I used to literally drive by his house just to get a glimpse of him or look around for his car. I used to stalk him for dayyyyys. And now this is the same guy who would drop off sweets to my house late at night. The same guy who wishes me good morning and good night everyday. The guy who facetimes me just because he wanted to see my face.