To: After I was raped. I had an abortion. (Its Mother’s Day)
Me: If I were you and I was a female, I would have done the same thing. There is nothing to be ashamed of.
If you had kept the kid, you would have had to live with your attackers kid as a constant reminder of the r*** he did to you and the kid would probably have reminded you of him, as he/she got older, with the same face.
I am sorry you never had any kids of your own and in fact I never had any kids of my own, (I’m Male) because I hated my parents the violent and abusive way they brought me up, culminating, when I left home at 16, with the demand from my father that I repay him all of the money they had spent rearing me, up to the time I left home.
They stole it from me in later life and it was the “Inheritance” I was repaid, after my mother died (my father died some years before) at Compound Interest almost to the nearest Dollar – the remainder of her estate was given away, by her, to other people.
I brought up other peoples kids as my own. I brought up 5 kids over 2 marriages and those that remain are just one from each marriage, according to social media.
You have done absolutely nothing wrong. There is no reason for you to be ashamed. Personally, I think you are a Heroin, you survived the r*** and lived to tell the tale, while many women who are raped are murdered afterwards to try and conceal their attacker’s identity.
You made the life you wanted for yourself afterwards and I hope you are happy in the decisions you made to make 50 – I am 74.
Stop feeling the way you do – you, like me, are a survivor and we got this far by surviving everything which was thrown at us.
Best Wishes
Richard