I feel terrible… being h**** is a good yet bad feeling at the same time.. I said sorry to those who I have affected but it just didn’t seem.. enough. And the person who promised she will stay with me left because we did some s***** stuff… but she gave me her approval I don’t know what went wrong had she said no we wouldn’t have done it in the first place. I just feel like I’m in a bad place and I did this with other teens (don’t worry I am a teen too) so I just feel empty now but at the same time I am bettering myself but it is so goddamn hard to get yourself clean from being h****