I know her well. She has her shields, like me..but deep down inside I know her. She’s an innocent little girl. She doesn’t want anyone to hurt, not ever. She sees beauty in everything. But she feels like a used up, burnt out reject inside. She doesn’t feel like anyone will ever or could ever understand her. All those protectors she has…she confuses them for herself. They’re escapes, products of trauma.

She never wants to do anything wrong. She has a good girl complex. But she’s only human and she’s been through her share of hell. Mistakes happen. And some of them were mine or Shadow’s.

She doesn’t want to do anything wrong but she doesn’t know what right is. Please don’t make her feel bad if she doesn’t want it when you come. She doesn’t want to hurt you and she doesn’t want to hurt One. Best way to avoid that is if you don’t pressure her. She already feels like she sold herself to the highest bidder. Or does so anyway on a daily basis.

She’s got some obsession with boys who are delicate and damaged. Maybe she’s too maternal. But it draws her in. She wants to save everyone. Not for accolades but for love. She’s naïve and sweet inside.

Maybe no one will ever really accept her but me. I love her for what she is, even if she forgets who that might be more often than she’d like to admit.

She needs to get away from all the r***. The emotional and physical kind. She’s not a toy.