I am, for all outward appearances, a normal male university student. I study hard in my courses, have a girlfriend, and live with my parents as my university is very close to home. But I have a secret that no one, not even my best friend who I trust with nearly anything, knows about. I have an intense desire to be a dickgirl, a sissy, a transexual, a trap. I frequently show myself off to men online so I can feel like I’m somewhat fulfilling my desires. I want to be a sissy s***, a fucktoy for men to use and abuse, to be filled with warm, sticky c**. This has been a constant source of shame for me, and the shame and guilt are only amplified more by the fact that I have a loving girlfriend of three years. I want to spend the rest of my life with her, but I also am tied down from flying with her by my extreme s***** desires.