what is going on? every time i feel like ‘okay, my love is going to be okay, i’ma go about my life’, something fukin’ happens to you that makes me feel bad for you all over again; and i think ‘oh s***, i guess i still love that mother fuker, this feels so bad’. what the hell have you been doing to yourself? this feels very unnatural, like you are going to keep getting beat down until you stop and do what you’re fighting against. don’t you fukin see it?! yet?! man you make me crazy. .