I want lip injections and breast implants. I really don’t know why. Before I gained weight (which I’m now losing) I was pretty and I resented people for how they treated me. I would go through periods of depression where I would wear baggy clothes and a baseball cap without doing my hair or make up and it used to piss me off how much people changed when I took care of myself. How nice people are. How guys flirt and hit on you. How girls glare at you. It would piss me the f*** off. I resented being attractive and I got molested and raped a bunch of times by people who commented on my appearance. I f****** hate humans. Just let me be pretty and treat everyone the same and I would be ok. I don’t want the attention. I don’t want the fake smiles. I don’t want any of it. But I still want to be pretty, I don’t understand it. I guess I just want to look nice, but I don’t want what comes with it. People are fake as f***. Kiss asses. Just because of a nice face and figure. Idiots. I’m nice to people regardless of their appearance. Wish people weren’t so disgustingly superficial.