I’m so done with all the b******* that’s happened to me , and making excuses for bad performance at tasks because of it. I’m so done i’m not going to tell them that I missed a shift because of a panic attack, or that i’ve been depressed, or that I’ve been having suicidal fantasies all week. Or that I have no healthy sense of fear anymore. Or that I dream in violence and cannot sleep a whole night. And now I have to quit before I hurt someone. You who started this mental health crisis of mine and caused me to lose what I had worked so hard to build, I’m never going to forgive you and even if it takes 3 more years to get out I will hunt you down and you will pay for what you did. My hatred for you is now the only thing that gets me out of bed every day. I stopped being a nice person. I’m not the same. At least i’m not a doormat. I’ll never be the same as I walk every day hating being alive. So R, what sorts of things do people do when they have nothing to lose? Hmmm.
