To: I am very very very lonely. I am miles away from my family.
Me: Suicide is never an option. Your life is worth a lot more than that ending. Think of all of the people who you will hurt, if you were to do so, your parents, relatives and everyone who knows you and loves you, what about them and how will they feel.
It seems to me you have outgrown your husband and you need to leave him and start again with someone else, somewhere else – or better yet, get a trial separation and see if you can begin again somewhere else, where you would like to be, instead.
Life is about having tough times and finding ways to keep on top of things and living your life to the fullest, whatever that might entail, because we only have this one life and we are a long time dead, plenty of time then to think about what we could have done differently..
Best wishes and Good Luck. You take chances, you drive luck to you, you do nothing and nothing happens, it is how it is.
