Even though everything about your job as a drug dealer is drowning you and the lies I know you tell even to me never stopped. Even though what we had was an affair and it was wrong…even though things should never have started..even though I know you’re no good for me..even though I know I should never have fallen in love with you. I still do! My heart, my body everything aches for you…its been 2 years…I still ache for you. I ache for your friendship and the telepathic way you completely understood all my needs. I f****** miss you so damn much. When I drive through town I hope against all hope that I will catch a glimpse of you…even if you turned your back when you saw me I’d still love you from affar. You infiltrate my dreams, the most mundane of dreams and yet you occupy the most important parts…and then their are the most excruciatingly s***** ones that have me waking up in fire. I want to stalk you and watch you. I want to touch you, look at you, taste you. I want to pass you in a club and feel the heat of your skin as you pass by…I want to feel your hatred if you hate me. I just want to feel the emotions you emit and bask in the intensity of them. I f****** miss you. And I want you so badly it takes my breath away.
