I hate the father of my child and I hate his side of the family. (My side s**** too, but that’s another story)
It took me a looong time to feel that way. He has betrayed me so many times and his family has treated me s***** for so long. His family is exhausting to deal with, and he won’t change. I want to take my child and go far away. Even though it is unrealistic, it’s becoming more and more attractive than being around people who don’t like me, who don’t appreciate me, and who couldn’t care less about me.
His family still associates with a ‘former friend’ who abused me while I was pregnant!
They tell me”they are here for me” if I need them, and when I ask for help with a man I don’t want at my house, they say they have more important things to do like “watch the game” Wow, okay.
They totally ignore my feelings, my situation, and haven’t considered me to be family right until I birthed their brother’s child. Even though we had been together 8 years prior. “You’re family now” I’m sure there’s a damn line somewhere.
I don’t feel like I’m part of his family. I don’t really see any good qualities in him anymore, and while people treat me like this, they treat him like he can do no wrong. When they see him making a”mistake” they come to me about it and tell ME to do something about it. Unbelievable! This makes me lose respect for him as a man, and it really damages our relationship further.
Why am I with him? I’m not happy. I keep trying to build our relationship but it doesn’t go anywhere. I want my child to have both their parents, but is that selfish? Is it selfish to put our child through parents who don’t respect each other and hate each other just so we can be a “happy family”? Or is it selfish to take away the chance to grow up with both parents from our child? Realistically, it’s a lot of work either way. I just fantasize about running away from everyone and everything for now.
