I have had a crush on my childhood friend … Tho I can’t really say hes MY childhood friend cuz he was the best friend of my brother but we always played together.
I always thought he hates me because he always was distancing himself from me. He was my neighbor so we saw each other ecery day and we went to the same elementary school but there he was distant so I dont know if he was embarrassed to be my friend.
After some years my family moved to the other side of the world and we öost contact with him… I miss him very much. I kinda think of him every day and I relate everything with him and the times we spent together.
But before I moved he gave me a farewell letter with a picture of us and he wrote I love you’s though he also gave one my brother…
I really wanna go back to my home country and meet him.
I wanna be recognized as more than a friend. But I just know he won’t ever look at me the same way I look at him.
Sometimes I imagine meeting him again and in my imaginations he is happy but then again I am sure he won’t be as happy with me as with my brother.
I seem to be thinking often that what if I would be smarter, morw attractive, morw fun to be around with…would he like me then?
