Ever since i can remember i never felt truly happy my dad and mum used to neglect me and my older brother s******* assulted me for 4 years of my life. i began falling into depression but anytime i tried to talk to someone in my family i was guilt tripping them and seeking attention my grand mother said depression and suicide is coward even tho she is a mental health nurse my parents have never congratulated me on anything i have done and even went as far to make me quit my job after making me pay rent [im 14] then they would tell me how ashamed they were of me and constantly torment me about my weight even though i was underweight they would starve me. they would wake me up in the middle of the night to look after my baby brother and then my older sister had a baby her boyfriend threatened to kill me and her with a spear gun and we were ment to have a girls night but she left me with her 3 month old for 8 hours whilst she went to visit him within walking distance without contacting me and now i have night terrors and live with several health problems. When i am at school i try to be friends with as many as possible and i never get invited anywhere i dont know what to do any more