To: I’ve been struggling with violent and homicidal urges since I was a child.
Me: We all have fantasies, yours are much different to mine and I would call you a homicidal maniac, but you keep yourself under control and your thoughts hidden from all those who know you, so you are “safe”, rather than “active”, which would be concerning.
The biggest problem now for everyone with urges, such as “ours”, are CCTV everywhere and DNA – only a few skin particles or s**** (c**), or a hair, are sufficient to link any of us to any crime we might perpetrate, with a 100% success rate, sooner of later, for the police.
Ultimately it comes down to choice. If you commit a crime by letting your tiger out of his/her cage, then do you want to spend the rest of your life in prison, with nothing much to do to pass the time, or possibly on Death Row, waiting to be executed, which will happen sooner or later, until the wardens take you to the execution chamber and that’s that?
Seems to me it is better to fantasize and leave it at that and live a normal life, without attracting any attention to yourself, than ending up in prison, because you made the mistake which caught you.
Interesting times indeed.