To: To the one that answered my: As a woman: I’m not of muslim faith, I am of christian values
Me: Sorry about my guessing who you are and where you are. Like you I don’t believe in God, it is a load of rubbish, inflicted on humanity by men who should be doing honest work and not getting a free ride on the backs of those who believe whatever they are told.
I am a white male and I have absolutely no issues about you or the color of your skin, but then I am not American and I don’t live in America, so the behavior of the whites over there, to the blacks, makes me shudder.
Speaking for myself, I would have given my eye teeth for a skinny black woman, but it is how it is and my society has very few black people in it and when we see one it is a bit of a novelty.
I have no idea what it is like in the South, but your circumstances are grim and I wish and hope for you a better existence in your life.
Your mother’s behavior is learned from how her parents treated her and because she odes not know any different, she behaves as her parents did with her, but that does not mean you have to treat your kids the way she has treated hers and therein is the difference between you and her and your brothers.
My parents were sadistic and violent to me, in my upbringing and I learned to hate them with a vengeance, which I still carry to this day, although they have since died.
As I mentioned early, I am male and I refused to have any children of my own, because, in punishment, my father’s blood line would end with me – it goes back to 1066 and 2nd in command of William The Conqueror’s forces, but no estates attached, too many black sheep between me and them and I guess I’m a black sheep too.
Payback is a b**** but I brought up 5 step kids over 2 marriages and 3 of them have since died according to social media.
But the point I want to make is that you can break the mold by doing your upbringing in a loving way, as I did with mine and I never, ever, hit any of my kids and I loved them all, as if they were my own and I earned their respect and love – before my wife shot through with someone else and took her kids with her – the joys of being a stepfather.
Stick with your values, take your time and select a good guy with a job and all of the values you want him to have and teach him how to pleasure you and support him in everything he does to better himself in life and be happy, is my wish to you.
We only have one life and we are a long time dead, so enjoy your life, whatever your circumstances and be happy.
I have found that life was best when I had nothing and had to struggle for my income and lifestyle, but when good times are delivered on a plate, with little effort on my part, it is little better than buying a bottle of milk and about as much fun too.