To: I have been thinking a lot about leaving everything, without any trace left behind.
Me: you cannot just disappear without causing terrible hurt to your parents, brothers, sisters, family and in the Community of which you are a part and would you want that on your consciousness, whatever way you go about disappearing.
Have you ever thought that you won the miracle of life. Of the billion of sperm your father injected into your mothers womb, when he came, only the sperm which made you, survived and fertilized her egg at precisely the right time to create you. All of the other sperm died.
You owe it to all of those other sperm, each of which could have had the life you enjoy, to do something worthwhile with your life, to give adequate reason, for your life and their deaths.
Then of course, there is suicide, taking all of the above into account – that is the cowards way out, only thinking of yourself and not caring about anyone else – and where do you go after life – speculation is that you go to Hell and for eternity, so if you think living your life is hard now, going to Hell for eternity is going to be the worst experience that you will get and forever, where time has no meaning and nothing happens to you, but excessive, unending pain, that you never thought possible and forever and ever and if so, serve you right!!
Stand up and be counted. Do something with your life. Stop feeling sorry for yourself. If you want direction, tell me what your s** is, how old you are and roughly which land mass you are on, or religion – and I will give you direction and purpose, because I have your back and in this you are not alone.
R