I have diagnosed OCD and anxiety and it’s so hard living with this.Every day is a new struggle and I don’t know what to do with my life.I’m at home all the time,using a phone too much because I’m distracting myself with that.I’m at social media and on google all the time.I know I don’t have a life because of that but when I try to live in “real life” I’m to anxious and when I go out I feel really anxious and nervous.Also I’m doing everyday some routines to feel better and it takes me so much time I can’t.When I need to go somewhere (it’s really rare,but it happens) I need more than one hour to get ready because I need 20-30 minutes to just wash my face,I don’t know how to change all of that,I tried but I failed.During a day I have some mood swings,I go from extremely bad to okay or even great.I’m so tired and also school is worsening this all so much but now I’m on winter break,but I’m so scared of going to school again.School makes it 70% harder to manage.I’m writing really messy because my thoughts are also mess,and I’m just writing whatever comes to my mind.When I have school I become depressed and I lose motivation to live.Then I’m always in mood to not live and to even kill myself.I just want to be better,to be happy like a normal person.I’m sorry it’s all so messy written but my thoughts are going everywhere at the same time.