To: I love her but I don’t, she acts like nothing is wrong and of course to her nothing is,
Me: I understand. For myself, I have found that long term relationships have been disappointing, as if my companion, for whatever reason, ceases to “try” and the reasons, to begin with, that we lived together, no longer fill me with joy, the way they did when we began this relationship, because I am no longer getting what I need, to feel fulfilled, like the reasons to be together, don’t exist anymore, yet I continue with what I don’t get out of it anymore, because I am too lazy, or I don’t want to inflict hurt, by dumping her and starting over again, not sure if I want, or will find anyone again, to replace her.
I suppose it comes down to company, opposed, to not having any and would that be sufficient for me and it is my home that she lives in and she rents a room from me, so that she has no rights to anything I own, as I have discussed here previously – but is that enough, when I lust for s** and yet I’m not getting any?
Perhaps it is the antidepressants I am taking that dull my physical emotions and my lack of interest stems more from those, than it does from this woman who is my companion – who knows?
For me, perhaps it is enough to continue as I am as my s** drive, is pretty much dead now anyway – even with p*** videos, I have difficulty getting my rocks off – although I succeeded massively last night, which was a very satisfactory release.
Good Luck with whatever you decide for yourself – youth, creativity, efforts to put in, so that you both take out equally and it does not just fall to one person, are all issues that must factor in what you want out of life and what you expect from the other person, to make your relationship worth while.
Perhaps make up a list of things you want in your relationship and then sit down with her and discuss these issues and how you are going to both achieve them, so that you rekindle the love you once felt, but don’t anymore, might be the first step towards staying, or breaking up with her?
